i'm elated! il y a trois jours, and my first chapter of a current project i'm working on already has 22 reviews!
it feels really great to be appreciated and judged not by one's appearance but by one's own style, and skills. it feels like a great start. and although i'm a bit ambivalent, as well as apprehensive, since i'm not too sure about the plotline myself or about some complications i've inadvertently created, everything is still in the black.
the only thing i'm worried about is time management: there's the "writer," miyako-san, and there's also the "student," the "daughter," the "sister," and so many other things that life's just become a bit drawn. i don't mind though, it feels great to discover and know about myself a little bit more.
i'm not going to tell anyone that i write, though. this is my guilty pleasure. if the curious kittens out there really are interested, they would take it as an initiative to find out. i'm not going to provide, but i also won't hinder either. "just let things flow naturally, and allow nature to take its course."
currently: pissed off at the rapidity - or lack there of - the internet. I thought cable connections were supposed to be fast no matter what? isn't that what comcast implied with the turtle commercials? (unless i've been horribly fooled by advertisements, then i'm angry, and ashamed.)
speaking of self-discovery:
schadenfreude: n. pleasure derived by someone from another's misfortune; not to be confused with sadism or masochism.
derived from the German language, from schaden 'harm' + freude 'joy.'
it's one of the characteristics that every human has displayed (i think), yet the term is elusive. i find that ironic, and at the same time, it makes me wonder--like the term, are most people aware that they have schadenfreude-tendencies?
i concede that i do, from time to time, due to moments of self-doubt et al circumstances, but that problem has been identified and, with a conscious effort, i feel that i don't resent and act jealous as much as before...
anyways. i'm going to work on the writing project now. i'm so happy, thanks again to all the reviewers! (:
