for the past week(s), i've been working on a writing venture--fanfiction. yes, i concede: i read manga, i watch anime, i stalk forums and fansites, and now--i also am becoming one of "them." the account i created on a website, which was created for fans who wish to write fiction for the stories/movies/cartoons/animations they've seen, has not been put to use until recently. i published two chapters. excitement, happinese, accomplishment, anxiety, apprehension, resolve--those emotions ran through my mind, and i was consumed--the plot bunnies have finally sank their buckteeth into me deep enough that the rabid venom has overtaken. i was a slave to an idea, yours truly, and i wrote, and editted, and racked my brain for words that would accurately describe the feeling. powerfully?-no too overused and sophmoric. ardently?-not there yet, there will be a moment when that word will be used, and that will be the time when i am consumed and filled with orgasmic writing pleasure and content. the necessary and perfect word to describe my status would be "satiated."
i've self-expressed myself mentally.
by next week, i hope to do the same, but physically. be bolder in front of the camera. act like a model. be a model. "own it" with my eyes. command presence. show personality. i just hope my resolve stays. i plan to name the act of self-expression: stage-tenacts of self-expression. look for it photo-edited. i'll most likely post it here. i can't wait. i need to get toned though. and hopefully my resolve stays.
another thing: i need to update chapter 3; even though they're strangers, they and i share the same affection for the characters and the ideals. a kinship, if you use the term loosely. so i shan't disappoint. (:
and of course, proof:
